I wasn't earning anywhere near enough to support us. Everything I had seemed to fall to pieces. True we could have gone bankrupt and maybe gone on welfare.
But that brings me to my second point. Knowing the type of location that one would have to live in plus the environment for the child plus the effect on them knowing they were on welfare was just more than I thought they could and should endure.
So that is the sum of it. If any one of these had been the condition we might have pulled through but this was just too much. At least I'm certain that they have gone to heaven now. If things had gone on who knows if that would be the case.
After it was all over I said some prayers from the hymn book. That was the least that I could do.
I leave myself in the hand of Gods justice and mercy. I don't doubt that he is a able to help us, but apparently he saw fit not to answer my prayers they way I had hoped that they would be answered. This make me think that perhaps it was for the best.
Also, I'm sure many will say "How could anyone do such a horrible thing?" - my only answer is it isn't easy and was only done after much thought.
After making and implementing the "horrible" choice, the author of the letter started life afresh -- a new community, a new job, and eventually a new spouse. A very happy life.
Who are we to judge what went on between this person and God? Who are we to judge how another person decides to deal with an intensely stressful situation, facing bankruptcy and/or the welfare rolls? Surely the rightness of the decision is evident in how life played out after the choice, right? Not great wealth, but a solid job, a comfortable home life with a loving spouse. Looking at the end results, surely this person did the right thing, even though it involved a really tough choice.
Who made the difficult choice that nevertheless proved worth it?
I'm sick of the argument that since abortion gives some women the oportunity to have "the good life" it must be okay. If you can argue backward from how much it benefits a particular woman, then you can also argue backward from the happy life John List had -- right up until the killjoys at America's Most Wanted spoiled it.
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